All her dreams are made of strawberry lemonade . . .

A long & overdue letter.

Sometimes you really lose sight of things.. and the road ahead of you is a little cloudy.

Ok... Maybe a lot cloudy.

And maybe it's been that way for a very long while. Because maybe all along even though I've wanted to blame someone else for all the wrong because it was easier that way. .. it was really just me all along.... rewriting the same script over and over again in a different setting with its own distinct cast. But the truth of the matter is, I just do it to myself.

As much as I'd love to put the entire onus on you for why things didn't go the way I would have liked, the truth is.. we were doomed from the start. Not because of you.. but because of me. And for that, I am truly sorry. I'm positive it's nothing but a distant memory in your mind and perhaps even completely faded away by now. And that's ok. You never stood a chance.. because the truth is, I never gave you a chance. Not fully and completely like you deserved.

Yes yes.. we all know the story and the things you've done.. but putting that aside.. I don't think it's fair I judge you solely on those things because despite those dark and negative things, I know there was something completely amazing and bright about you. Which is why I loved you to begin with. and why I could never possibly hate you. ever.

I guess there's so much to say but not nearly enough easy ways to do so. And this is just me writing in my blog... this is just me emptying the cobwebs from this dark and cluttered mind that have been stashed tightly away for far too long . Not sure what I'm accomplishing by this. Whether or not the eyes intended to read it actually read it, I guess maybe I'll never know. But maybe just saying it out loud is enough. For me anyways. For now. I guess we'll see...

I sincerely wish you nothing but the best in life.. all the luck and love in the world.. and so much joy and happiness in your future. Know that I am harbouring no negative feelings, resentment or anything of that nature towards you.

I know I owe you nothing. Just like you owe me nothing. And I hope from here on in, that everything is Kool. That's it. That's all. Goodnight. :)

Love always: