All her dreams are made of strawberry lemonade . . .

Baby Zuma.

Finally.. after over two months, Gwen Stefani releases the first baby photo of lil'Zuma on her website. Can't say I'm too crazy about his name... but he's a real cutie. :)))))))

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The Sun's Getting Cold, it's Snowing..

You know... I must admit.. I've been in a bit of a rut as of late.. and I'm having a really hard time with a lot of things. A really hard time. On how mankind is not a selfless being and is so enveloped in their own ego. The possessions of material wealth and expensive items. Of show and grandeur.. and a bunch of other things. Of looking out for our own best interest.. instead of holding out a hand to your dear friend. Showing signs of caring is weak.. being cold and detached is much better. It doesn't matter if you step on someone else.. use their feelings.. care less about their best interest.. for just a little bit.. as long as you benefit somehow... or maybe just to pass the time. It's only something small and trivial. It will not hurt them. They will not care. They'll go on just like the rest of us do. Who really cares about heart anymore these days. Who really cares about foundations of truth and honesty and love and respect. Who really cares about humility and sacrifice any longer.

I do. And some other people do as well... but it appears to me.. that these people are falling through the cracks.. because they are so grossly outnumbered by the hordes of other people out there.. ready to trample all over you at the first sign of advancement.. or ready to jump ship and abandon you at the slightest signs of distress...

And it saddens me to such a degree.. that I find it hard to face my everyday life. If you disagree with me, then I challenge you to prove to me otherwise because from what I have witnessed in these years of my life.. the exceptionally good (if not the relatively good) are very few and far between.

I do not make myself out to be some saint by any means. We all have our faults and Lord knows I have many. My biggest one is that I lack the motivation to pursue something with great intensity. And my second is my pride.. which often makes me unable to forgive so easily. Maybe that's my first. And I'm sure there are many others...

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this post. I know I have a lot of feelings right now.. and they are swarming in my head.. like the worst of raging storms I have ever seen. I don't know what to think or feel. I am overwhelmed with feelings of grief, sadness, disappointment, discouragement, anger, disgust .. only to name a few.

We are not important in the grande scheme of things.. and the sooner we realize this... maybe the sooner we will learn to be a more sensitive and caring being. Because I think it is vital for the survival of our entire race, that we change drastically.. and quickly. Because this survival of the fittest method.. will leave many behind.. and the fittest, will be very lonely at the top. And eventually die out. Leaving no one and nothing.

These are just my thoughts and feelings. And I know that I want to do so much.. and say so much.. because i feel SO much. And I cannot turn it off. I know I have to do something. But I'm not sure what. How.. or where.. and why? Because the feeling within me is greater than anything I've ever felt before. And call me delusional or sappy or pathetic.. but I do care. And something needs to change now.

So.. I'm going to get up and start doing something. And.. I sincerely hope that many others will take my lead and do the same.

We need to be better. Because.. we aren't. We suck. A whole lot.

And we should be ashamed of ourselves.

And I do not know how these people can go through life so effortlessly without feeling this deeprooted shame.. because I know I feel so badly for things I have done and wish to make up to errors.

And sometimes I have. And sometimes it works out for the best...
and other times... it doesn't.
and what you thought was a simple apology..... would lead you down a dark road that you never dreamed you would go down.

Right now I'm just rambling... and perhaps not making much sense to many.

So, I ask you this. Can you look at yourself in the mirror and be proud of the person that you are and all that you've done and how you have treated everyone in your life? For the choices you've made.

Basically.. I would like to send a wake-up call to everyone in the world. To re-examine what it means to be human.

Because if what I see around me today is what it means to be human.... well, then.. I can honestly say that this is a life I no longer want to live.

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You killed the light. You'll never see it again.

Last night was so much fun!! It's the first time, in like two months, that I've been out with friends for a night on the town. and i had a friggen awesome time! and i met Gowan's little brother!!! bahaha that's too hilarious! :))
I decided that I wasn't going to let me being sick get in the way of some fun. I deserved it. Err.. now i have to save my monies for my Florida trip for New Years. i'm SO friggen excited!!!! ;D w00t w00t.


She said you're killing the light
You'll never see it again
We come to suffer I said
I won't be fooled by the light
I won't be fooled by the lie

The easy road lies in wait
Takes it's toll and all it desires
Leads you blind
Leaves you there
Takes your heart and leaves you in silence

She said don't leave us behind
We'll never be here again
Our lives are closer this way
I won't be fooled by the light
I won't be fooled by the lie

The easy road lies in wait
Takes it's toll and leaves you in silence
Leads you blind
Leaves you there
Takes your heart and all that you wasted

Look what you've started
Look what you've started
Look what you've started
We're all broken hearted...

If I Were A Boy.

Beyonce's new single/video. Very powerful and touching...
I think she probably couldn't have said it any better than she did here.

Cake Wrecks

My sister sent me this link. This blog is hilarious! Well, maybe for some. Basically highlights poorly made cakes.. or just plain disaster cakes. Good times for other people, who like myself, are stuck home sick with plenty of yummy coughing and sneezing to go around and surfing the net while simultaneously catching up with Tempesta.

Anyhoo, check out this site for a good laugh. :)))))

P.S. I'm sad that the Conservative party won..but at least they are still a minority government. Next time we will get it right. Next time, you people should get out there and VOTE! Hooray for Democracy!!! :)


I had to type this out for one of my classes.. and hey, what the hell, I thought I might as well post it up on my blog too. Now you can read all the nitty gritty about me. Cheers!! :))))

P.S. Don't forget to go VOTE today!!!!


Autobiography for Giuseppina

Born: Friday, September 15th, 1978

Sun sign: Virgo

Birth City: Toronto, CANADA

Giuseppina was born the third out of four girls from lovely parents Gaetano and Teresa. Both parents were born and raised in a very small town in Sicily, which is in the south of Italy. They came to Canada 30 years ago with their first daughter Carolina, who was already nearly 3 years old. Upon arrival to Canada, they didn’t waste much time and shortly after had Francesca, Giuseppina and Luisa. She is very close with her sisters and all four of them are not only siblings but are also very close friends.

Giuseppina was a quiet little girl growing up. Usually keeping to herself and creating her own stories and scenarios with her dolls and making up plays and musicals with her friend for her family to see. She attended Catholic school until she graduated high school in 1996. She then went to a public school to get credits in courses that were prerequisites for college but were not offered at her school. Along with those much needed computer courses, she also took many personal interest courses such as fashion arts, digital photography and Spanish.

After she finished high school, she thought she would take some time off before continuing her education and started working full time as a medical secretary. After some time, she started taking part time courses in college towards her computer programming diploma. In 2000, she started working as a clinical research assistant for Women’s College Hospital affiliated with University of Toronto. She worked there for nearly 6 years, taking on many projects in hopes to advance. When it became apparent to her that they had no intentions of letting her advance to her desired position, Giuseppina had a choice to make. She could either stay and accept that, find another job, or quit her job and go back to school full time. She decided to quit her job and go back to school, a hard decision as her parents were not supportive of this. Having given up on the computers route she had taken a few years back, she decided to go to university and remain in the health studies field as it is where she has mainly worked for the most part. It is also the area that most interests her and what she would like to seek a career in.

School was going fine for Giuseppina and she was quite content to be attending lectures and doing assignments, regardless of the age gap between herself and her classmates. For the most part, many of her school friends had no idea she was a “mature” student and thought she was the same age as them so, she had no problems fitting in. Everything was grand until last year.

In September of 2007, Giuseppina became very ill. She was off school for nearly three months and was in and out of hospitals as they tried to diagnose her condition. They tested her for Meningitis, Rheumatic Fever, Limes Disease, West Nile Virus and a whole slew of other things. The virus was so debilitating that she was forced to stay in bed for the most part because her limbs were in so much pain and she had little or no use of them. Pain was so severe that medication did not help and sleep would not come at all. Eventually, the virus seemed to have disappeared on its own. Due to the lengthy time off school, she had to drop out for that school year, a decision that was very upsetting for her but she felt she had no other choice. Later on, some of the underlying symptoms persisted on and off. Through continuous testing with her doctor and researching on her own, an answer was finally found. Early this summer, Giuseppina was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. There was very little known on this condition to herself and surprisingly, to her doctor. She began to research it extensively and looked into ways that can help her cope with it.

In the fall, Giuseppina once again began another new school year at York University. This time around, it is a more difficult feet. With symptoms of the condition persisting, it is difficult to keep up with her courses.. The main symptoms that make school and everyday life difficult for her are the extreme fatigue and low energy levels, the low concentration and poor memory retention – also known as fibro fog, as well as the other moments known as “fibro-flares” when you go through periods of time, some lengthier than others, where the pain persists and becomes burdensome. Thankfully, it is not all the time. However, she refuses to be discouraged and will continue to forge on ahead and complete her studies and receive her degree.

Giuseppina is a very warm individual who cares deeply for her family and her friends and treats them with utmost respect. Her love for animals runs deep and she has recently become a vegetarian after witnessing how horribly animals were being treated. She is barely ever serious with friends and loves to have fun, laugh and make jokes. Moments are to be enjoyed and socializing with friends and family should always be important in everyone’s life. Being honest and true are of utmost importance to her and she would go to the ends of the earth to help out a friend in need. Her kindness and generosity are recognized by her true friends and her need for maintaining a peaceful environment seems to be a never-ending quest.

She really hopes to change the world, or at least add something brilliant to it. There is far too much good energy inside of her and she will not stop until she has made a difference to any, if not all, persons that she comes across in her lifetime.

The following URL is a brief slideshow put together with photos of various important and fun times in her life:

What are you thankful for?

There's just so much that I don't understand... and to be quite honest, I know not what to do with all of this confusion.


Happy Thanksgiving Day.

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing...

So yummeh!

These are the best things ever. OK... maybe not the best.. but seriously close to it. They are DAMN good.

Flat Earth's veggie crisps!! The Tangy Tomato Ranch ones are soo delish! :)))

so.. yah. They're made from rice flour, potato flakes and a vegtable blend. AND they are glutton free! Go get'em at yer local grocery store!

Happy Snacking!!! ;)))

much love:

You betcha!

Wedding bells rang this weekend for my little cousin Giovanni and his beautiful bride Francesca. I want to sincerely congratulate them on their lovely union and I'm so happy to have her as a new addition to our family. She is an amazing and wonderful woman and I'm happy to call her my cousin! Buona fortuna!! Tanti baci! .xoxox.

As for me...

I was getting down & dirty on the dance floor.. with my footwear of choice.. naturally.. hehehe ;)))))

I'm procrastinating hardcore right now. I should be working on an assignment.. but I'm ready to pass out from exhaustion right about now. But.. alas.. i must kick myself in the ass and GET CRACKIN' :D

Happy October everyone! And don't forget the most important day of the year is coming up in 24 days!!! Well.. next to my birthday of course.. hehe ;))))

much love!.xoxox.