All her dreams are made of strawberry lemonade . . .

Happy Canada Day long weekend!!!

My horoscope today:

This can be a rather juicy Full Moon for you, even if you must exercise self-restraint. Holding back your feelings isn't anything new to you, for you understand the impracticality of your emotions. Now, however, you really don't have a choice. Reality requires that you express yourself conservatively by understating your feelings. Still, you may feel safe by the containment.
Saturday, June 30, 2007

Goodness me!! It's rather juicy.. lol Holding back your feelings isn't anything new to you?? hahahah that's the fucking understatement of the century!!!!!!!! Safe by containment. Yep yep.. we know the drill... keep a safe distance... mum's the word. hush hush darlin. don't tell me cuz it hurts :P

I'm delirious from lack of sleep and overworking. I've been working fulltime for the past month and it's been pretty fabulous because I'm in dire need of the money. Plus.. the store specialist was speaking to me today and wants me to be trained on all these manager duties and was trying to talk me into possibly taking a manager position and moving my way up the corporate ladder towards head office.. but to be honest.. i really don't desire management position within my department.. or even at store level. If anything.. i intend on bypassing that all together and jump straight into head office. I have far more experience that will help me there anyways. But like I said.. that's always something to fall back on *career-wise* if my other goals/ambitions fall through.. but we have time. Lots of it. And right now... it's the freakin weekend.. and i'm outta here!!!

Have a good one people!! *mUaH*

Zoom zoom.

I bought some wheels. Finally!!

hehe no, not those kind of wheels.

The kind I've been meaning to buy for a while and now i did.. and i'm VERY excited. My summer's looking up already!!! YAY!

It was totally cheapies... was on sale for $150.. and within my budget.. and i'm poor. and it's good enough for me. i lurves it. rawr.

it's preetifuL....

and maybe...

just maybe
it's quite possible
some people
need to feel validated
to boost their ego
or whatever it is they do
and keep those around them
to inflate it.
cuz maybe others deflate it.
who knows.
and maybe i'm wrong.
but either way..
i can't afford to chance it anymore..

because you see..
i have a lot more to gamble here.
i have my heart on the line.
and others.. well, others..
i just don't know a damn thing at all about those others.

And to be honest.. i really don't think there really is anything to know.
In fact. I'm sure of it.

that's the way the cookie crumbles..? or something like that?
something like that....

I need to separate myself from this..
I don't know how. I really don't..
but I have to.


AHHHH! I'm SOO jealous!!!!!!

It's SO unfair that MY concert didn't have this!!!!!

but..i'm so fucking unbelievably excited at the same time!!!!



The boys are back in town...........

Hell fucking yes. I'm way too excited............................... !!!!!!!!

No Doubt NEWS!!!! *eep*

plus.. i heard No Doubt is performing at Gwen's show in Irvine in the encore.. and i'm so fucking beyond jealous.... AHHH!! so not fair. GRRRRRRRRRRRR....

Read below for some news.. and video.

(although i dunno how ROS was a failure.. considering it's one of my favourite albums lyrically.. pshaw. commercial.. smershial... )


No Doubt is officially on their way back -- and Celebrity Babylon has the EXCLUSIVE photos and video that show just that!

Gwen Stefani’s tour has brought her back into the So Cal area, and given her plenty of time to stop and visit with some old friends, as well as get a little practicing done. Band members Gwen Stefani, 37, Tony Kanal, 36, Adrian Young, 38, and Tom Dumont , 39, announced they would be reuniting to make their sixth album earlier this month and it looks like the ball has already started rolling. We caught them at a private recording studio in Los Angeles on June 21. When we stumbled upon the secret session, CB saw Gwen first, "Oh wait," she told us, "just a sec..." She came out with her three bandmates and said she wanted everyone in the picture, not just her. Celebrity Babylon got these EXCLUSIVE photos that everyone and certainly every music fansite will be talking about!

After the commercial failure of the group’s 2000 follow up album to 'Tragic Kingdom', 'Return of Saturn', they fired back strong with 2001’s 'Rock Steady' which reached number 9 on U.S. charts as well as produced two grammy award winning singles ‘Hey Baby’ and ‘Underneath it All’. The group itself has went through their fair share of hardships in the past, with Tony Kanal and Gwen's public spilt in the nineties almost breaking the band up as well, but that doesn’t seem to be effecting them at all. After the groups hiatus Gwen went solo and released 2004’s 'Love.Angel.Music.Baby.' and followed that album up with 06’s 'The Sweet Escape', but she wasn’t the only person in the group recording, Tom did a solo project calling it Invincible Overlord, and Adrian did the drums on Bow Wow Wow’s 2004 tour as well as recording most of the drum tracks for Unwritten Law’s 'Here’s to the Morning' released in 2005, Tony taking a different route, enjoyed producing several tracks for such movie soundtracks as Adam Sandler’s '50 First Dates'.

During rehearsal we caught former lovebirds Tony and Gwen looking pretty cozy, leaving Celebrity Babylon to wonder, does Tony regret leaving Gwen? If he does that's just too bad, Gwen couldn't be happier with husband Gavin Rossdale, and one year old son Kingston. The band members could be seen in great spirits as well as lounging between sets and waiving Gwen off as she left. Rumors have started stirring that we may not even get a chance to listen to the new No Doubt album until fall of 2008! We here at Celebrity Babylon know that’s a long ways away, so to hold you over we have EXCLUSIVE pictures and video of the group after a practice yesterday in Los Angeles. What’s in store for all of the fans? Who knows, but no doubt, it will probably be B-AN-AN-AS!

[ source ]

Happy Pride Toronto!!

See ya tomorrow night in and about the city and Sunday at le big parade.
Expect to be photographed.

ooh la la!

you're making me crazy.

what are you trying to do to me? to do to me?
what are you trying to prove to me? to prove to me?
there's something you're not saying but your actions say enough
and i don't know what's really going on...

are you afraid of me?
are you afraid of me?

i leave a message every night but you don't call me
the only times we ever talk you're in a hurry
i know my reputation doesn't help you sleep at night
but lately baby i feel i don't know you...

are you afraid of me?
are you afraid of me?

i... i thought we were the same
but now you play this game
you're young
no fun
and you're making me crazy!

[ Are you afraid of me - Rooney ]

I've got a lot to say to you...

Yah.. i've got a lot to say.

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
that never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again...

Let's be more than this. makes no sense at all makes no sense at all.

The Park.

Why should he come back through the park?
You thought that you saw him but no you did not
It's not him who'd come across
The sea to surprise you
Not him who would know
Where in London to find you

With sadness so real that it populates
The city and leaves you homeless again
Steam from the cup and snow on the path
The seasons have changed from present to past

The past
The past
Turns whole to half
The past

Why should he come back through the park?
You thought that you saw him but no you did not
Who can be sure of anything through
The distance that keeps you
From knowing the truth

Why would you think your boy could become
The man who could make you sure he was the one?

The one
My one
My one

[ Feist ]

Day one of treatment.

So.. i have to undergo this heavy duty drug treatment to get rid of this bacteria infection i have. fun stuff. i'm taking 3 different types of antibiotics.. 2x a day. fun stuff. they make me feel like total ass. I start today. It's only 10 days long. it's 60-75% effective... so, in 6 weeks i test again to see if it's all gone. wish me luck <3

p.s. Why can't I let go..?

It's an infinite world.... and I want you.

For you I want to sing the happier song
for you I'm gonna try to right all my wrongs
for you I'm gonna break my bad habits
there's a golden ring and I want you to have it
there's a golden ring and I want you

For you I'm gonna sit and patiently wait
it's great if you're early but if its fine if you're late
for you I feel love and I just want to show it
you're a beautiful girl and want you to know it
you're a beautiful girl and want you to know it
you're a beautiful girl and want you to know it
it's an infinite world and I want you

Once again I am opened
Once again I am opened

For you I'm waiting on the ticket line
I gotta get back I don't wanna waste time
but the people are tired and the line is so long
so all I can do is sing this song...

Gwen Stefani Concert Pix...

........are here.


There were loads more.
but not that good.
too much shaking.
and i have videos.
but no space to upload them
so.. wait for them.


Who's fault is it anyways?

I'm feeling disappointed.
I feel a bit let down.
Cuz I can't seem to find the reason
why no one turns around.
And maybe it's my fault
and perhaps i am to blame
having such high expectations
and doing what's right seems all in vain

I see actions all around me
that just do not add up
I'm feeling pretty low about it
and i think i've had enough.
Dunno how to pretend no more
Dunno quite how to act
Cuz nothing's as it really seems
we're missing all the facts.

of lies and cover ups here and there
and i'm probably guilty too
but did you ever stop and think
that i was only protecting you?
but people will not rest so easily
needing fuel to add to their fire.
and in the long run what is it they get..?
a whole bunch of truths and them left as the liar.

I've lost, in the end, this battle
when it's all been said and done
cuz it's really myself i should blame
for handing you over the gun.
Control of my actions i have
though i never quite seem to know how
so, i try to make sense of the others
and i'm lost more than ever right now.

Everyone's guilty of selfishness
everyone's doing their part
in the game just to win the grande prize
even though we might break someone's heart.
Whether it's yours, or mine or theirs
there's always someone who gets caught
There's no use pointing fingers to blame
We're all left feeling somewhat distraught.

I'm aware that I choose what I'm doing
and it's obvious which things I should change
it's not quite as simple to do though...
when it's your whole life you need to rearrange.
So.. excuse all the mess and confusion
and pardon my lack of concern
while i clean up the wreckage around me
Just another life lesson i've learned.

This may never stop tearing out my heart...

Call me a safe bet.. I'm betting i'm not.

Mercy - BRMC