All her dreams are made of strawberry lemonade . . .

I can see your face in our secret place.

Yesterday a hole was made in my heart bigger than anything else I've ever felt in my entire life. My cousin Giacomo passed away. I'm having a hard time accepting this. I still cannot believe it's true. I expect him to come waltzing through the door any minute.. being all silly like he usually was.. and laughing, joking and all dramatic. He was classic for his hilarious scenes.

No words can express the loss and hurt and pain that I am feeling. I am in such a state of shock and disbelief. My heart goes out to his mother and father... my cousins and his brothers Michele, Giovanni, Gaetano & Vince Anthony and to his wife and babies he left behind, Elizabeth, Antonina and Vincenzo. I love you guys so much. I have a lot of cousins.. but you guys are the only cousin's I've ever really known. You guys are like brothers to me and the most dearest to my heart ever. I love you i love you i love you..

I'm posting this because I want everyone to know about him. I wish everyone could have known him and had the pleasure of his company because he had a marvelous way with people. And I never want anyone to forget him. I never ever want to forget about him. He should be here now.. he should not be gone....and I will never ever for the life of me.. accept this and understand why this happened.

Baby boy, I will forever miss our singing, our playing... I will forever miss your smiling face.

~ RIP Giacomo. ~
July 14th 1979 - January 23rd 2009
Ti amo per sempre e mi mancherai per il resto della mia vita.

Wishing you were here with me...

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
God wouldn't let it live...

Earthbound Starlight.

I wanted to post Duncan Sheik's newest video. I'm absolutely in love with this song. I've had it posted on MySpace for a while now so, you may have already heard it on my page before. Anyhoo.. CHECK out the video! It's amazing! I loveth him. and this song is so beautiful.


EDIT: -- i had to remove the embedded video because it was playing audio ads on my page.

You can click here to see the video. :)))


In other news: Paramore is opening for No Doubt!!!! hell fucking YEAH!! :)))))))

ciao ciao.


DAMN. it's fucking COLD outside. this.. is.. why.. i need.. to ... move.. FAR AWAY. where it's forever warm. and a paradise of sunshiiIIiiIiiNe and warmth and palm trees. or sumpin like that. cuz i need bellisima summer days. and not this stank ass frigidness that is our winter. yep.

I don't have anything to say really. But i felt bad cuz I never post in here anymore. I'm really too busy but I swear I'm still alive and kicking. Wildly! hehe

Oh.. i can leave you with a picture of my new coat. yah.. it's not some glamourous photoshopped pic like i normally post. so, tough titties. this will have to do. i look all shiny and extra gross. but but but i couldn't care less cuz my coat is fucking cute and lovely. yes. it is. i love it. it's greatness. in a perfect shade of blue. i should wear more blue. it's my colour anyways for September.. but I don't think i own too much of it. i think everything in my closet is black. Haaaa.. anyhoo mother licker. hehe.. here's my picture. it's nasty. but my coat is fucking kick ass. and my room is a sloppy mess. so, don't mind it.

Oh OH oh.. and if yer bored and have a Twitter.. (or if you don't).. you can check me out on there and see what i'm up to. cuz i know you REALLY want to know and keep tabs on me. Haaa.. right. anyways. i have to go do stuffs. you know all those kinds of stuffs that you have to do. right? right! :)))))


I can go to the Ocean.

Just wanted to say HAPPY NEW YEARS to everyone! Hooray for a fantastic year that lays ahead of me.. well, and all of you too i'm sure. hehe ;))

Florida was fantastic. The highlight of my trip was me swimming in the ocean. Yes.. i'm well aware it was pretty fucking cold by the ocean. But ... i'm kinda kooky like that. and yes. i ran in. haha the waves were so fucking mental and high. Beach patrol drove by and yelled at us to get out of the water. Pshaw..

Anyhoo. Big hugs and kisses to everyone and hope this new and fresh and awesome new year brings you everything you wished for and a whole lot more!! :) *mUaH*

(C'├ęst Moi.. in the Atlantic Ocean.....Being pummeled by huge ginormous waves.)

Missing Persons: Ani Ashekian

A friend of mine asked me to spread the word about this. One of his friends has gone missing and everyone is being asked to help in some small way or another. Let's hope and say a prayer that she does make it back safely home. Please repost this on your blogs or anywhere people can see it and let others know. Spread the word! Thanks so much! : )

Ani Ashekian has gone missing. She traveled from Toronto to Beijing on Oct 24th, 2008. She then traveled to Hong Kong on November 9th.Her family and friends have not heard from her since November 10th. If you have seen her, please email

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MISSING: Ani Ashekian