So not true....

Crap. :///

It hurts and I can't remember sunlight.

You, you know how to get me so low
My heart had a crash when we spoke
I can't fix what you broke
And you, you always have a reason
Again and again this feelin
Why do I give in

And I always was, always was one for cryin
I always was one for tears

The sun's getting cold, it's snowin
Looks like an early winter for us
Looks like an early winter for us
An early winter, oh I need you to turn me over

It's sad the map of the world is on you
The moon gravitates around you
The seasons escape you

And I always was, always was one for cryin
I always was one for tears
No I never was, never was one for lyin
You lied to me all these years

Why, why do you act so stupid
Why, you know I'm always right

Looks like an early winter for us
It hurts and I can't remember sunlight
An early winter for us
The leaves are changing colors
Starting over and over and over again.........





(i know there's an official video for it.. but i hate it cuz it cuts out key lines in the song)

Gwen lookin' pretty snazzy.

Gwen Stefani on the cover of V magazine. I think it's a pretty damn fantastic photo if you ask me! I was tired of the face close-ups of her being all glamorous with plastic like figurine poses and such, sporting the "I'm OH soo beautiful!" look............ *gag* hahaha just keeding.

I'm actually going to buy this one. Cuz I'll admit.. I haven't bought any magazines with Gwen on the cover for quite some time now.... *yawn*

Now, THIS is the stuff I wanna see!!! Go Gwenny Gwen Gwen!!

:)))))))))

tick tock tick tock....

GAWDDDDDDDDDDD..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have GOT to be the most impatient person in the entire world. My mind is racing a mile a minute and I can't do anything at all to ease it except WAIT. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......

fuck. fuck. fuccccccccccccck.

A Fine Frenzy.

Guess who's going to see them?

Yep. You guessed it. I'm so friggen excited!!
: ))))

I was so sad that I missed their concert back in the fall... and I just about flipped out when I saw another Toronto date added last minute!

If you haven't checked them out.. then you should.

Here's one that's most appropriate right now...
:(

nite nite.




Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life...?

Get a hold of yourself, you're acting odd girl....

Kinda moody and I'm trippin
and my head is a block

What's the matter with me
I'm acting really odd
And I think you'd agree
There must be something wrong
What's goin on and on and on and on and on...??

I'm in line to buy time........

I'm like a beggar with no luck
I'm holding signs up
On your street corner stops
Like most you try not to see me
You stare straight ahead
Ignore the responsibility!!
Excuse me!!!!!!!
Well, I've been waiting in line
And I'd like to buy some of your time
I'm very anxious, eager, willing
What's you billing?

So please excuse me Mr.
You've got things all wrong
You make if feel like a crime
So don't confuse me Mr.
I've known you too long
All I need is a little of your time

For most love comes for free
They don't pay the high cost
Of mental custody
I'll pay bail for a guarantee
Make space for me
In the time yet to be
Excuse me!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I've been waiting in line
And I'd like to buy
Some of your time
I've been saving up my life,
What's your price?


What should I do
I'm about to crack
And there's a force
That comes over me
It's almost as if I'm tied to the tracks
And I'm waiting for him
To rescue me
The funny thing is
He's not going to come
He's not going to find me
This is the way I guess it has to be...
A Little of your time
I need a little of your time
Please, a little of your time

So please excuse me Mr.
You've got things all wrong
You make if feel like a crime
So don't confuse me Mr.
I've known you way too long boy
All I need is a little of your time

I'm in line to buy time..
I'm in line to buy time..............

New shades!!!

I went to Winner's to buy a new pair of runners.. cuz seriously.. my old ones were SO worn out and crusty looking.. that it was seriously embarrassing wearing them at the gym.. i felt like such a dirty hobo!!!!!!!! ew ew ew.

SO... while at Winner's.. i walked by the handbags.. and was passing the sunglasses rack when this one pair caught my eye.. they were dangling half off the rack.. and glistened gold.. they stood out from the rest of the bland looking shades. So, i picked them up..and put them on... and VOILA! they fit perfectly!!! I think my face is just really warped or sumpin.. cuz sunglasses never fit me nicely.. i have to search forever to find a pair that fit me snug and perfect. So.. contrary to my extremely warped facial structures.. these ones fit most divinely. So... haha even though i didn't *NEED* to buy them...... I purchased them anyways. That's my little splurge of the week. or month.. since i never go shopping anymore. but whatever!!! i need new shit. so, i don't feel that bad. and YES this entire post is about my fucking kick ass new sunglasses. w00t w00t!

and here they BE!!! : )))))))))))))))))



i LUFFF them!! they are most fabulousnessssssss.

now i must go and watch Tempesta (& overdose on mini eggs) before my sister kills me dead.

ciao ciao lovelies!!! :)))))))
*mUaH* .xoxoxo.

So bored...

I'm so bored as of late. With everything around me. Including this blog. I wanna change the layout.. but I haven't the faintest idea what to change it to. Any ideas?

I'm anxiously awaiting for these winter blahs to melt away...

Goodbye dark and drab.. hello sunshineyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy days.

: ))

Vacancy.

I'm so incredibly sad. There is no way to even begin to explain it because the words just end up getting lost... and the truth is that I only want one thing. Yet that one thing seems to be the most unattainable thing in the entire galaxy. So, I mope and sulk and nurse my wounds in the dark by myself while I lay here completely and utterly exposed to everything and everyone.

If I hold it in, it backfires. If I talk about it, it backfires. If I cause a fight, it backfires. If I lie about it, it backfires .. and even when I'm honest, it always backfires.

There seems to be no right doing in this situation. Not for me. I don't know how to be "non-thinking" about things. How can you be in something and not think about it? But then.. it's not really something is it? No... but it's not really nothing either is it? or is it?

I just don't know which way to turn anymore. And I'm afraid I've lost the fight...

I'm just feeling so sad.

Vicks & Robitussin.

I am SOOO sick again. I have this awful cough.. a chest cold or something.. maybe a flu.. no clue.. but I'm coughing up a storm. I try not to move or talk.. because I cringe at the thought of coughing. Everytime i do.. this insane pain shoots through my entire body causing me to jolt and flinch in agony. fun times huh? Anyhoo.. there seems to be a reason why I'm always sick.. and not so much that I'm always sick.. but I always tend to feel REALLY sick when i do get common colds and such. And.. it's not normal. Exciting? Yah.. that's what i thought. : (((

Anyhoo.. So, starting to today.. I have to cut out a shitload of things from my diet. I'm not allowed to have any caffeine anymore. Seriously.. i might just die on this alone because i live off my coffees. No more cigarettes. or booze. not that those were a huge problem considering i was more of a social smoker and i barely drink these days. But for the time being... nada. These are more on my own accord.

But in all seriousness.. there is something wrong and I'm undergoing testing right now to figure out what it is.. although... we kinda already have an idea. But I think at this point, I would just be satisfied knowing that there is something there and putting a name to it.. to explain all these aches and pains all the time. So, wish me luck. : )))

The return of saturn .. assessing my life... time to take the reins and get this shit in order. I gotta look after myself and fix it. The rest can wait.

Cheers! : )))

Happy Pancakes & Anniversary Day!

That's a double happy day. You got it! Two in one goodness. Oh yahhhhhh.. ; ))))

Today is Shrove Tuesday (or as others call it, Fat Tuesday or whatever else you'd like to call it). So, I got up bright and early this morning to make banana chocolate chip pancakes for my family. They be yummies and delish. And now i'm going to pass out. I just finished cleaning up.. I'm enjoying my coffee.. and I'll most likely go lay down again.. considering I didn't get much sleep and I've already been up for over 2 hours. Sick.

It is also my parents 36 year anniversary today. They already celebrated early and went to Casinorama yesterday.. my parents being major compulsive gamblers.. haha any excuse to go really.. hehe :))))))

Anyhoo.. buon anniversario mamma e papà!!

(this is an old pic of them that we have framed.. maybe i should get it fixed for them..
maybe it'll be next years present.. haha!)

___________

Edit: And VOILA! here's an edited version of the picture. Thanks toShhphotos on flickr!! : )))))