DREAMCAR

I wanted to write a post about this super group because they really deserve all the hype.. because they really are THAT amazing.   With Adrian Young on drums, Davey Havoc on vocals,  Tom Dumont on guitar and Tony Kanal on bass.. you are seriously in for a sweet treat with these doods.   (and, did I mentions their whole tour will be vegan?? how friggen' bad ass is that?  major swoonage for cruelty free musicians!!!)   These guys are so beyond talented.  They have been waiting in the sidelines for a while now so, I'm incredibly stoked and happy for them because they get to showcase their real talent.  These guys are BAD ass.  As a trained musician.. all the music is on point.   From the songs that I have already heard, the sound is so well put together and flows so nicely.   It has a very 80's and electro punk feel to it. and  I am absolutely loving it!  I cannot wait to hear the album in its entirety.  It comes out May 12th, 2017 and new shows will be announced this Friday, May 5th.  I'm fortunate and SUPER excited to be seeing them at their Toronto show.  So, be sure to go check them out and GET their album! You will not be disappointed.    Boys..  you are seriously the bees knees.  This is your time to shine.  You got this! :)))))))     #ONFLEEK

Here is a little blurb Tom Dumont wrote:
"Our debut album is out a week from Friday: May 12. This project has been a much-needed creative outlet for me. I'm really proud of the songs & what we've created together. @adrianyoungnd @daveyhavok and @tonykanal have been inspiring collaborators and partners every step of the way. Can't wait for you to immerse your ears in this. More DREAMCAR performances announced later this week!"

and just in case you haven't checked out their first single, here it is,  Kill For Candy.  An Instant Favourite. :)))))  

I'm where I'm meant to be.

That moment when you know that you're finally there. 

Here's to sheer joy & happiness and authentic lovely experiences.
Here's to now. and forever. and infinity.
:) .xoxo.

I am here to shift the consciousness of humanity.

Indigos can sense dishonesty, like a dog can sense fear. Indigos know when they're being lied to, patronized, or manipulated. And since their collective purpose is to usher us into a new world of integrity, the Indigos' inner lie detectors are integral. As mentioned before, this warrior spirit is threatening to some adults.

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Lemme tell you something...

I have a heart that's big.  GIANT. and amazing. 
it's full of Love. and light. and all that is bright and magical. 

I have a sparkle.. that you'll never ever be able to extinguish.
I have a hope that fills my heart with immense wonder,

happiness, joy, passion and brightness.

it carries me through even the darkest places 

that i've walked through in my life.

I have a shine. a glimmer.  i have a goodness.

a goodness that is whole, and complete

and wonderful, and it's me.

and it's all of me. and will always be.

it's strong. it's beautiful. it's fantastical.

I have a fullness that is dense and satisfying.
I do not hunger for more, for I have all that i need...

all within me.

I do not need to search outward for these things,

that will never ever matter in any lifetime

not for anybody. and not for me.

because i have a heart. a heart so big.

a heart of gold. that shines. so bright.

and i am beautiful. 

and that's the only thing that matters.

to me. to all of me.

and that's all i need to be 

is me. authentically me.

passionately me.

sparkling me.

I own that.

no one else does

or ever will.

so, hold that with you. 

and find those things about you.

because that's what life's about.

and feel that good. and that love.

and share that good. and that love.

and you will transcend.

rise up. follow your bliss.

be good. do good. live good.

it's what i am. who i am. how i live. how i do.

i have a heart so big.
this is me. 

❤

This is my reality. Your reality is not real.

...

There are people who live among us and they are a cancer. They are dead inside and they want us to be dead inside. If they choose you, fight. Wake up. Do what you can to help those just starting their battle. Don't beat yourself up if they are not ready. Be there for them when they are. The dark is cunning. It splits the light. But not for long. Stand up for them as you wish someone had done for you. Don't leave them behind or see them as your enemy. If there is no love, no empathy, then what are we? Them? Love yourself, yes. Make yourself strong. But don't forget what sets us apart from the soulless, our ability to connect with others like us. They have the gift of darkness, but we can see in the dark. Light seeks the light. Every man for himself is their motto. Not ours.

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Happiness is....

New beginnings; with much better things for me. 



Happy new year. :)

Oooh numerology reports are fun.

Here's mine.  For shits and giggles.  ;)
But the verdict is in.  All the signs point towards loads of success coming my way. 
My healer has tremendous things to say about all the opportunities, love and abundance heading my way.
I am so totally beyond excited for this new year. 
Finally! I seriously deserve so much amazing things.  LOTS of amazing things. 
And looks like they're finally headed my way.  :)
Have a nice day!

Peace, love & light.
~G. .xoxo.

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The number 22 Life Path usually includes one other person that is with you or is a heavy influence on you for your entire life. You might have a tendency to see your lover and yourself as one soul or one person....
You are considered to be the more powerful and the wiser of the two master numbers. Sometimes number 22's are called the master builders in life as they are capable of imagining and then creating the huge systems and networks that support the very fabric of civilization. It is usually a 22 that is the propelling force when it comes to shifting the consciousness of great masses of people or improving the life quality of millions of people.

You are an optimistic individual who has the rare capability to manifest your higher ideals into reality. You are blessed with the ability to realize even the most far-fetched and seemingly impossible ideas. You are a clear communicator and eloquent with words.

You are natural born leader and others willingly follow your direction. Usually you are attractive in appearance. You find your soul mate very early in life and usually stay with that one person until the end of your life. Usually this soul mate is presented to you almost as a matter of grace so you can focus on the larger more important matters you are fated to attend to.


You are brilliant, inventive and above average intelligence. Others find you to be charismatic and inspirational and your life is often filled with appreciative employees and friends. Your very presence is reassuring and comforting to others and many seek out your advice and wise words. In fact, many 22's become recognized sages and spiritual gurus by the end of their life.

As part of a karmic quirk, you were probably born into wealth and privilege and it is likely you received a better education than most people. These were the tools that the cosmos gave you to excel on your life path. The only drawback of such a path is that others may become jealous and see you as "being born with a silver spoon in your mouth."

Number 22's are almost assured enormous success, prestige and fame at some point in their life. Those who don't become famous in the obvious sense are often the unsung geniuses behind progressive inventions and technology. However most 22's are not motivated to achieve as a matter of reward. If you are a 22 you probably enjoy what you do and would even do it for free.
You also make an exceptional parent, teacher, counselor and spouse. Perhaps the only t hing you may not excel at is being a follower.

You are also very emotionally balanced and a guardian of all that is harmonious and beautiful in life. As you are a great lover of art, you may also serve as a patron to artists, poets or musicians.
As you are also considered to be an enlightened number, you will also be very charitable and philanthropic during your lifetime. Many charities and organizations will benefit from your wealth, as will your relatives, friends and family.

Despite your achievement, you will also be much beloved simply because you are such a humble individual. On a metaphysical level you might even have the ability to transform negative energy into positive as you are so wonderfully connected to the divine.

You are also very at peace with both your subconscious mind and higher self. You are distinguished by your ability to apply spiritual knowledge and in a practical way. You are secure emotionally and seemingly incapable of being distracted from your chosen path. You consider yourself to be above petty emotions and resentments and accept your tasks and emotional obligations with gratitude and a noble sense of duty.

Merry Christmas!

May your days be merry and bright. :)

Peace, love & light. .xoxo.

This. All of this is you.

I have never read anything that more accurately describes you as this. 

Merry Christmas to me... and no longer having you here to ruin it for me. 

You don't have to call anymore, I won't pick up the phone.

This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry!

This one's for you, boo.

You are scum, you are scum and I hope that you know

That the cracks in your smile are beginning to show

Now the world needs to see that it's time you should go

There's no light in your eyes and your brain is too slow

Can't believe you were once just like anyone else

Then you grew and became like the devil himself

Pray to god I can think of a kind thing to say

But I don't think I can, so fuck you anyway.

I used to love you.

You know I was the best thing that ever happened to you.
Now look at what you've lost.

I don't know why I used to love you..
I don't.. I don't.. I don't.

Set me free... Leave me be

Brunch love.

Now i can drown my pancakes in syrup forever. :)

Stop asking, you know all the reasons why

hey look... it's a post.

Hiya folks.    Lookie who's back!!   meeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!  

Does anyone even read this thing anymore? anyone? Bueller?

Well..... here i am.. Finally got my computer set up the other day and I was like.. hey man.. i got so much crap i can upload and update etc...  So, I should totally do that RIGHT NOW, right??? :))))

Well... There's a whole bunch of new stuff that has happened since I last posted.  For starters, I live on my own now for the past 4 months. Finally moved out of the parental unit.  I'm a big girl now!! :))    and today is officially a year since I've been = at my new work place.  So, it's all cooolio, yO.  Lots of new beginnings for sure.  So, I guess I'll just update with some pix and stuff.   Just a few pertinent pix with a couple of short descriptions. and hopefully you'll get a proper blog the next time. But anyway, here we go....

• this is me circa 5 months ago.  i was packing my stuff up at home and came across this old leather collar i had got custom made way back in my goth days. haha good times ;-))))

 

 

•  these are all the boxes i needed to pack.. oh yaaaaa boyyy. hehehe :))

• My new place... and finally having my babies with me!!  this is Halo and Massimo.. the two boys we rescued last year.  They were found with their litter in a plastic bag in a dumpster. People are so messed up. :((((

• My kitchen!  It's totally adorable and spacious. I love it. :))))  

• My cousin Lisa came to visit from France for two weeks back in September. Her, my aunt and uncle stayed at my parents house for two weeks and we were up to all kinds of shenanigans for two weeks.  Was fun!  Can't wait to go visit her in France next year!! :)))))

• My first hair cut in a long long time. Got a graduated a-line bob.. Though this picture was taken two months ago.. so, it's a touch longer now and grown out all blah-like now.  I'll fix it up next month and take a better picture.. with an actual camera and not my cell. :)) Maybe.....  (probably not. haaaa)

• Me and Carrie up to all kinds of shite as per usual.  That's how we roll. Titz & Bitz for life.  When we gunna start all those blog ideas, girl?? hehe :))

• Some Halloween times.   I won best costume at my work. Cuz that's how i roll.

• Close up of my ghastly face. Yep  yep.

• This is baby Bali.  He is a baby Holstein calf.   He is a rescue at Wishing Well animal sanctuary and I had the most wonderful pleasure of bottle feeding him. He was such a sweet doll.  Totally fell in love with him and those big eyes!  *swoooon*.

• Me and my girls Denise, Kerri & Tanya.   Been friends with these lovely ladies for 15 years now and i totally adore them.  Such great gals. :)

• Got to see Moist play last month! SO amazing. WHat a blast from the past.  Took me back to being 18! haha  Mind you, this was the first time i saw Moist and wasn't moshing in the pit.. or drunk.  Times have changed for sure hehe :)

• David Usher.. dood hasn't changed one bit.

• Also, got to meet the members of  'In My Coma'.  They opened up for Moist.  Totally cool peeps. and awesome band.  Just listening to their CD right now actually. You should check them out. :)

• Me and Geo posing up for some Selfies post concert. woot. NXDers 4life.

• This was that time when I played for the Argonotes last summer... the Argonauts pep band.  Me and my sister had a great time,,,even though she only fake played. haha  What a great experience. I look forward to doing it again next year.  

• Went to California again this past summer.  This time, we checked out central coast.  Stayed in Avila Beach. How heavenly it was.  I friggen love Cali.  Would totally live there. LOVE IT. 

• My girl Bethany drove down to Avila and stayed with us for the weekend...and showed us around. Was so good to hang out. Wish you lived closer, girl!!  Miss ya! .xoxo.

•  Here's a picture of my adorable Christmas tree.  Yup.> Super KAWAIIIII.     And if I don't get to post before then.. i wanna say MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!  HAve a wicked awesome Holiday!! :)))

 

That's pretty much all.. I'm sure there's lots more to type and tell.. but it's 1am.. and i'm hella tired and wanna crash cuz I'm a little itty bitty old lady now.  Oh ya.. my sister Franca got married in January.  I don't have a photo.. and can't seem to find any for some reason.   But her and Michelle had a lovely ceremony in Niagara Falls and we all attended and it was very touching!     So, that's pretty much it.    I hope to update a bit more and be more active with my vlog channel once i get all settled into my new place and stuff...  You'd think i'd be settled after 4 months.. but no such luck. haha  Anyoo.. That's just a quick glimpse of my life right now.   Hope to write more soon.  Take care. :))))   .
~G.  xoxo.

I wanna write  a special dedication to Zodi who passed away two months ago today.    He was such a beautiful and special boy.  We are going to miss you forever.  Such a gentle and loving soul he was.  You will forever remain in our hearts.   You were the face of sweetness, gentleness and loveliness. A great and bright light went dim that day... and the sadness that overtook our hearts was immeasurable. :(((((    Rest in Peace forever dear sweet baby boy. We love you so much.. no one more than your  momma Carolina.  *hugs*  Love you both.  .xoxo.   RIP Zodiac. 

And what do I want?

Quite frankly, I'm not really sure anymore. I'm waiting for some deep meaningful moment to happen..to start.. To appear in front of my eyes. But i have no idea what I'm looking for or waiting for. I was told by my counselor to do things that make me happy. What exactly makes me happy? I thought this would be easy and I could do this so effortlessly. But i have no idea what makes me happy. I dont know what hobbies i care for or things that really inspire me or motivate me or just make me feel jolly in general. I haven't the slightest clue what that is.. I haven't any idea what i want. And what makes me tick. And what makes ME happy. And that part..is the most startling thing for me. So, how do i find this out?

What I've learned so far..

I've learned that people like to point out your mistakes, but deny their own.
I've learned that you can comfort people all you want, but the minute you need comfort, they can barely listen to a few of your own strangled lifeless lines before they bail.
I've learned that just as easily as someone can give you their love, they can take it away from you and leave you there flailing your arms about in the deep end, drowning...
I've learned that people are selfish and at the end of the day, they only care about their own immediate best interest.
I've learned that maybe I should do the same.
I've learned that nothing is definite.. or indefinite.
I've learned that your health should always be your first priority.. and that doesn't mean a number on the scale or how toned your sweet body looks. No. I don't mean those at all.  You shouldn't either.
I've learned that being able to control my feelings is nearly impossible.
I've learned that I need to start asking for help.  Cuz I'm not that strong.
I've learned that life is very different now from how it used to be.. and that there's a serious disconnect happening between people.  It makes me sad.. and slightly afraid.
I've learned that I can't trust my own judgement.  nor yours.
I've learned that I have an affinity for the sad sad songs when I feel grief stricken.
I've learned that I'm majorly fucked up. and so are a lot of people. way more than me.
I've learned that I've always enjoyed being on my own.  Maybe there's a reason for that.
I've learned that I don't know how to be mean to someone I love. Even if they deserve it.
I've learned that a promise can always be broken in love.. along with your heart. Multiple times.
I've learned that keeping secrets makes you feel ill.
I've learned that coffee is the devil. and super bad for you. on every level.
I've learned that I seem to have a lot in common with Taylor Swift and her inclination towards emotionally dysfunctional people.
I've learned a lot of her songs.
I've learned that people lie and act horribly because of their own fears and hang ups
I've learned that I'm already bored of wanting to write a new blog entry..
I've learned that naming your plants makes it much more monumental.
I've learned that it's not all in my head.  but sometimes it is.
I've learned that I have a gift.  and I should learn more about it.
I've learned that I'm really afraid of a lot of things.
I've learned that being mindful is the only way to live.  and I'm still learning.

Yet I've learned absolutely nothing at all...