Happy Halloween.

boo!!!!!!!!!



have a most fabulous halloweeney time.
stuff yer face with loads of candies and chocolates.
dress up. dress up. dress up.
smear on some make-up.
be fabulous. be creepy.
be anything you want!
TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES!

*mua ha ha ha ha ha ha*

Love ya loads.

.oxoxoxoxoxxxoo.

kissies.kisssies.

~g. ♥

(p.s. I'll post halloween pix later cuz i still have some to take tonight and i'll do it all at once.)

Butterflies in my stomach.

I'm so nervous about tonight.

I've performed so many times; I've been in music ensembles for most of my life, performed concert solos, accepted awards, sang live on national tv, danced, sang, and strutted my way across countless stages, sang in front of judges for Canadian Idol (shh..lol), and we all know I'm a regular karaoke fanatic who's never afraid to belt out any tune while dancing.

But.. this is different.

I've never acted before. This is new to me. It's proving to be a lot more difficult than I anticipated. Getting in character is hard work. Especially when that character is nothing like you. So, I'm sitting here.. rehashing my lines over and over again trying to get them dead on.. while the clock ticks and showtime draws nearer and nearer. It's insanely .. hrm.. well, a few words come to mind: Terrifying; distressful; nerve-racking; frightening.. er.. you get the picture.

I'm nervous as hell.

:(((((

*takes a deep breath*


So, off I go to play Mariuzza and hopefully I won't forget any of my lines.
Wish me luck!!

much love:
~g.

Let me be the one that shines with you.

OK PEOPLE! i totally stole this blog idea from the most lovely missc because she's smart and i was like "hey! that's genius! i'm teeefing yer idea, bizznatch!" haha well, not quite like that. but along those lines. minus the gangstah lingo. lol

sooooo... here goes:

*ahem*

HALLOWEEN is just around the corner... and i STILL have no clue what to dress up as. I know a few people threw around some ideas.. some pretty neat.. some pretty typical.. some just kinda lame.. haha but still.. i want to hear them all.. bad or good cuz i NEED some ideas.. hopefully some of them will spark some incredibly kick-ass costume ideas for me.. and i'll have something fabulously halloweeny and fun to wear next week.

Just some little bits of info pour vous:

1) You DO NOT need to have an account on here to post me comments. Anyone can post.. and HELL! you can even post anonymously.. imagine that!! (That's for all you *cough*stalkers*cough* out there!!). That goes for all my posts/entries.

2) I have NO money.. so, don't suggest something that will require me to go out and buy some elaborate costume/accessories.. which i obviously cannot afford at the moment.

3) Don't suggest something slutty please. Not happening. nope. nuh-uh. no way, josé.

I was joking to my friends saying that I was going to be a CHola for Halloween.. draw in my eyebrows with a sharpie and wear tube sox with my man slippers. HAHAHAHAHA.. and i came up with this sweet-ass picture LMAO


hahaha
toooooooo hilarious.
I'm latina. it's the troof.. lol

anyhooo.. that's it. that's all.
OH.. one more thing.
MY PLAY IS THIS WEEKEND! MY BIG ACTING DEBUT!
I'm SOOOO EFFIN NERVOUS ... EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
We're having two shows. Saturday evening and Sunday afternoon.
Wish me luck. Please.... :))))))))))))

I'll leave you with this picture of me and the love of my life.
(I totally look like a drag queen in this picture. bua hahahaha love it!)




now GO COMMENT CRAZY with halloween costume ideas please.
THANK YOU IN ADVANCE!! :))))))))))))
*mUaH******

much love:
~g.

p.s. i MUST stop drunk texting him. haha he's going to think i'm crazy drunk pirate hooker face and never talk to me again. hahahahahaha. word.

It's really good to hear your voice...

Saying my name.. it sounds so sweet....



I'm obsessed with this song.
(and this movie)

Far from home; I just don't want to be found...

i'm so tired. i worked 11 hours today.
ELEVEN hours.
then had play rehearsal.
tomorrow i have school all day.
then rehearsal.
which is pretty much everyday this week.
cuz our play is on the weekend.
it's disgusting really.
too much to do.
WAY too much.

and i worked all day yesterday and it was soooo busy and hectic and uberly INSANE!!

AHHHH!

but. there's this guy at my work who is seriously the funniest person ever.
he cracks me up.
he needs to write all the shit he says.
i swear..
it's the funniest shit i've ever heard.
so, that helps the work days go by a lot quicker and easier.

PIBE!

hehe :)))

we also had our first football match yesterday..(which, i might add, we were brutally RAPED and MURDERED in-- hoorah for PRO teams that sign up to house leagues. effin CHEATS.) Now i am SO VERY sore. it hurts all over.
:(((((((
ouchies.


and on that note...
it's way too late and i need to be in bed.

i'm feeling mopey and disgusting lately.

i hate it so much.
blaaaaah.

~g.

p.s. i have to wear braids for my play.
i'm playing a 17 year old. go team go!


(notice the absence of red bangs....? yah. they went bye bye.)

I don't want this anymore.

I'm disappointed in so much.
I dislike the world around me so much.
I'm unhappy with a lot surrounding me.

People are a farce.
With painted masks they walk around..
like RATS in a fucking maze.
Following it in circles...
Of a game they think they should be playing.
Of a road they think they should be following.









Keep your sympathies and words of encouragement.
It was never there before.
I don't need them now.
or ever.

* * *

Kiss me goodbye
when I'm on my own
but you know that I'd rather be home...

I forgot about these.

These are some screen captures Kevin did for me from the videos I took at the Gwen concert.

My camera took really clear pix and videos. The videos are posted on MySpace in the videos section if you haven't see them already.

Click on the photo below to see the entire set of the pix from the screen captures.
(The photos I took are in my flickr album.)

Once again, thank you so much Kevin.

:))))))))

much love:
~g.

p.s. Happy Friday the 13th everybody. *mua ha ha ha ha*

Ingenua.

Dove andro senza te, io non lo so
A parlare con buio mi perdero
Con l’amico più carro mi sfoghero
Con la voce sempre più stanca..

Dove andro senza te, io non lo so
Sulle muri il tuo nome scivero
Ce ne sollo nel letto impaziero
La tua foto sul petto e gridero.....

Ciao amore..

ciao amore.

ciao amore.













Tu che credi sempre in questi grandi amore..
ma poi non e cosi.

I stay away from boys.

But really.. I think they stay away from me.



I sometimes wonder....
well, I won't tell you what I wonder because I won't allow myself to go down that road.
It's one of those doors better left unopened.
You just can't ever can go back.
Right?


Anyways.
It's almost been three years.
It doesn't seem that long ago..
yet it seems like it was so forever ago.

New love..?
Not a chance.
Not even a glimmer all the while.

I'm not looking for it.
I'm not waiting for it.
I think I've given up on it.
Stopped expecting to see it around the corner.



...


...



...






This blog is lame.
Because I have nothing to say.
I just want to mope.
Cuz I feel like ass.




ASS.


















I really would love for once for someone else to come and take all this weight off my shoulders and make it all better .. tell me it's going to all be alright... tell me you're going to make sure of it. I really want a somebody to be that for me. To do that for me. All I ever wanted was stability, security and a solidness to build everything else upon. Is that too much to ask for?
*sigh*

goodnight.
~g.

[ A Day of Thanks. ]

I'm thankful for my beautiful family.
I'm thankful for my gorgeous friends.
I'm thankful for my incredible life.
I'm thankful for music and dance. *heart*
I'm thankful for my choices.
I'm thankful for the roof over my head.
I'm thankful for the food that I eat.
I'm thankful for my most adorable Lilly who makes me smile excessively.
I'm thankful for the sunshine, the rain that falls,
the misty mornings and the chilly, starlit nights.
I'm thankful for my freedom to express myself.
I'm thankful that we're never short of beer and drinks. ;))

Thank you God.
and thank you everyone.
for all the little and big things you do
that add so many amazing & wonderful things to my life.

*mUaH*


:))))))))))))



much love:
~g.

She looks like she gave a blowjob to a powdered donut.

I HATE the girly time of the month. I'm craving salty things like insane. I don't crave sweets ever. It's more like PRINGLES or FRIES or fried chinese noodles or something. DAMN YOU!!
rawr.

FYI. The previous blog was pure jokes. Me and my friend were bored and silly and wanted to take hilarious pictures. Because we're so fucking sexy and want to show off that shit, y0.. cuz we like to expose all our goods all over teh InTerNet. booya!
(we are not really dirty sluts. we like to keed around.)

ANYWAYS.. I'm in extreme pain over here and have been all week. Let me tell you my quick story. So, last night I decided to take two Tylenol 2's instead of one.. because the previous night I took one and it didn't really do anything. SO, they start kicking in and I start getting all loopy and tripping out bad on them.. THANK GAWD I had Carrie and some others calming me down online.. or I would have had some serious ass panic attic freaking the FUCK out thinking I was about to overdose on pills. BAHAHA.. omg. Seriously.. pills scare me and I hate taking meds. So, Thank you Carrie for saving me from INSANITY last night while I was on drugs. LOL.. I think I'll stick to my Advil... eep.

I don't really have much else to say so, I'll end it off with a couple of photos:

I bought a new hat and I lurves it so much. Hooray for autumn cozyness!


My kitty is seriously the cutest ball of cuddliness in the entire world. word.

like i said. C - U - T - E - S - T ! ! !


much love:
~g.

Hookers on Fonix.

Today we're having a two for the price of one dealio.

Get'em while they're HOT to TROTTTT!!!...

Rawr......... ;))))))))))

---

[ we are ready & willing for j00 ]

* * *

[ it's what we do best ]

* * *

[ seductive enough to lure in the men? i hope so! ]

* * *

[ i pose with mics by my lower regions cuz i'm that hot... ]

* * *

[ & then i @!$%# the mic hooker styLies. w0rd. ]

---

much love:
~g.

TMJ.

I went to the doctor today because I've been sick for a week now and my ears were beginning to hurt so much again.. just like when I went away to Italy 2 years ago. The doctor told me it's most likely due to TMJ and that I have to see my dentist to get help for it. Umm.. ok? My ears are in friggin pain and I seek the doctor for help and he sends me to the dentist. GO FIGURE! ........ :-/

Anyways........... in a nutshell, I have a poorly aligned jaw (overbite of sorts) which is causing this irritation in the jaw joints. Stress, my cold, my period, hormones or WHATEVER causes it to flare up badly and it makes my entire jaw stiff and sore along with causing severe pain and discomfort to my ears.

I missed school today for this.

I am not a happy camper.

:((((((((((((

goodnight.

~g.

Sunday Bloody Sunday.

ALWAYS, the maker of "feminine sanitary napkins".. aka.. PADS, have this new promotion. On the little stick and peel paper on the adhesive of their pads.. it says the following in fancy little script:

Have a Happy Period.

ummmmmmm... ok.. last time I checked, there is absolutely nothing fucking nice or "HAPPY" about having your period/time of the month. You're an emotional wreck, you're bloated, you're doubled over in PAIN, and not to mention the fact that you're friggin BLEEDING for 3-5 days non-stop! Holy shit! Who the hell came up with this promotion? Is it a joke? Because I didn't think it was funny at all.... So, the people at ALWAYS have a fucking SICK twisted sense of humour. Yep. So, all I have to say is:
FUCK YOU PEOPLE OF ALWAYS! I WILL NOT HAVE A HAPPY PERIOD!!!!!

grrrrries.....

*ahem*

Anyways, I have nothing else to add except that on top of the above rant.. I'm still sick.. my ears are in SO much pain.. I'm behind on reading because I've been working non-stop.. and to top it all off.. WE MIGHT BE GOING ON STRIKE!! because .. you know.. I really don't have enough things happening in my life at the moment.. :-////

GREAT. all I need is to be not working and not making money. and not paying my bills. GOOD TIMES!!

*cries*

I'm using my period as an excuse as to why I ate an entire half pound bag of BRIGHT PINK peanut M&M's. (and plus money was donated to breast cancer research when you purchased them.. so, I ate them for a good cause! true story!)

.... and on that note, I'm going to bed.

much love:
~g.

Drunk Sick GurL.

I have the flu. No.. not a chest cold.. not a head cold.. the FLU! damn you VIRUSES!!
My entire body is aching all over and I have NO idea how I made it through the day. I can't breathe. I can't move. I have no energy. Everything is so sensitive and sore. I haven't eaten a thing the entire day..

Let me also add that last night I went drinking with some friends at the local bar, sang some karaoke and I got insanely smashed and had less than 3 hours sleep. GO TEAM GO. :-/

So... I'm gunna attempt to have some soup and see if it wants to go down. Maybe go lie down for a while.. because I'm crazy and went to work today on my day off because they needed people and I need money. So.. it works out for us both. lol

I'll leave you with a few pix from last night.

Anthony & Stephanie are most awesome. \m/:

Vahan "take a picture of me standing by the wall". lol:


Peoples. (Armen, Paul, Deelan (sp?) and i think the other guy is Les. aka.. championship belt dood):

Me and Anthony rock your socks:

much love:
~g. .xoxo.

Tiny Update.

Just a little brief update on things.

I've decided to switch over completely to blogger from Xanga. I'll continue to use Xanga as my own private/personal journal and use this one as my main public one. With the occassional random blogs I write on myspace.

On the subject of school:
I've started school and have been incredibly busy since then. Been in a bit of a muck trying to get my classes organized and declaring my majors, etc. Just a bunch of paper work, basically. I've managed to clear up my schedule a bit, leaving me more time to work... which is really important for me because I didn't take out any loans for school and I'm paying out of my own pocket for my tuition. Which is a whole LOT. ha... :-/

On the subject of love:
Jeremy is out of the picture. I read back on these entries I've written and I'm terribly confused why I felt the way I did. I mean.. I'm not lying when I say I had such good feelings about this right from the start. But nothing really started to begin with.. and I couldn't have been more wrong about anything than this. So.. I went with my gut instincts this once and they failed me. Because this guy will not open up to me in any way and I can't wait around forever for something to happen. What a shame. :(

On the subject of family:
My sister Franca is moving out this weekend. To her own apartment! She's moved out of the house before, but this is the first time she's moving out all on her own to her own place. I'm excited for her. Can't wait 'til I can finally get my own place! : )))

On the subject of extra-curricular activities:
This play I'm in is proving to be a bit more work than I had thought. The director is constantly picking on me. I've never acted before. I wasn't born and raised in Delia to know the accent perfectly. Oh, and did I mention that everyone else in this play has already DONE the play a few years ago and so, they know it well? Anyhoo.. he's getting on my nerves.
Also, football is starting soon and I'm soooooooo excited (that's soccer for you americanos). Not til October but I'm very excited about it because I haven't been able to play in almost 2 years because I got busy and for some other reasons.

And that's my brief update.
Ciao for now.

Much Love:
~g. xoxo.

The truth about Men.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

Drunk dailing..

you know you want to. but you won't.
even though you really want to.
but you still won't.

damn it.

we went to see my sister's friend's baby the other day.
she was so tiny and adorable.
i couldn't believe how teenie and most precious she was in my arms.
look at her:

i never ever felt that i was emotionally ready for a child.
until now.
i know i'm ready for one. and i want to have kids..
but unfortunately.. everything else in my life isn't ready.
isn't that always the case? of course. :P

school. work. living spaces.
oh .. and of course the most important part..
no husband.. not even a boyfriend. yay! : ))

i'm not in a rush.. i don't feel like my clock is frantically ticking away and i need to hurry and get a move on. i want it to be when everything else seems to fit in.

but i know that's not now.

school's moving slowly ahead.. and i'm happy about it. happier about my decisions and choices.
I'm going start playing soccer again and i'm very happy about that.
my birthday is in a few days.. and i'm happy about that.

but the person i want to spend the most amount of time with.. and share the most amount of things with.. seems to have no clue what he wants.
seems to push me away with everything we do that brings us closer.
i wish so badly he'd open up to me.
something.
anything.

this is tearing me up so badly inside.

i have nothing else to add.

i dyed my bangs pink.
and i like them that way.

don't forget my birthday. ;))
it's september 15th.
i'm off to bed now.
sweet dreams to you all.

much love:
~g.

Where's the Inspiration?

I really let my head cloud up in these past few weeks. I let myself get worked up over nothing and I should have known better. I should have been how I normally am: Cautious.. Unsure.. holding back... testing the waters... I'm in a whole lot of nothing here. and for what? and how the hell did I even lose myself to begin with? I've never been in this spot before..and it's a little uncomfortable and it makes me feel really uneasy.

I've been feeling so withdrawn lately.. not wanting to be around people.. not wanting to do anything.. and not really caring.. I know this feeling. I recognize it all too well.. and it's not a place I want to go to again.. yet, I find myself constantly returning to that spot.

I'm not really sure what I'm rambling on about here today. I find myself trying to escape the city.. just to be out.. to be away. In hopes that it will take my mind off things.. not make me think. It doesn't help. It makes returning home and dealing with this dullness even harder.

I've lost my drive and inspiration.. just right now. I don't know where it's gone to. I think I've been sidetracked by other things in my life.. it's no excuse but it surely is the reason. Now I find myself obsessing and thinking over something that isn't even there and wondering if it ever even existed. I'm trying so hard to pull on those reins that let those horses gallop away in the excitement.. and trying to haul their ass back on track.. back in line.. I need to collect myself.. and my thoughts. Focus. I've lost my focus.

School.
It starts in two weeks. I've never been happier in my life to go back to school than right now. I'll be able to bury myself in exams, lectures, assignments and essays and you have no idea how thrilled I am at the prospect of that. Chaos and being swamped in a sea of deadlines. I need that so bad and I love it and welcome it with open arms. I'll be back to my regular routine. I'll be busy all the time.. probably won't see friends til the holidays.. probably won't have time for a life.. probably won't have time for me... the same ol' stuff that happens during the school year. I'm excited and I can't wait. Two more weeks and then I'll be back in focus. I'll be back on track. No more room to worry and fret over sillyness whose only purpose is to serve as a mind clouding agent. Bah! I have no time for these things in my life. Silly cat and mouse games or whatever you want to call them.

*sits tall and straightens self out*


I'll be ok. I always am.
There will always be a million more reasons to smile tomorrow and the next day.

:)))

much love:
~g.

Boredom leads to....

Yah. so, i was hella boRed.. and went nuts with the make-up.
and then snapped up some pictures..
and then went photoshop crazy with them.

and voila.. my uberness cam whoRe.. at your disposal:

k. that's it. that's all.

you can check out my other cam whoRe and make-up adventures in this photoalbum HERE.

nite nite
~g.

p.s. i *heart* Jeremy.