Drunk Sick GurL.

I have the flu. No.. not a chest cold.. not a head cold.. the FLU! damn you VIRUSES!!
My entire body is aching all over and I have NO idea how I made it through the day. I can't breathe. I can't move. I have no energy. Everything is so sensitive and sore. I haven't eaten a thing the entire day..

Let me also add that last night I went drinking with some friends at the local bar, sang some karaoke and I got insanely smashed and had less than 3 hours sleep. GO TEAM GO. :-/

So... I'm gunna attempt to have some soup and see if it wants to go down. Maybe go lie down for a while.. because I'm crazy and went to work today on my day off because they needed people and I need money. So.. it works out for us both. lol

I'll leave you with a few pix from last night.

Anthony & Stephanie are most awesome. \m/:

Vahan "take a picture of me standing by the wall". lol:


Peoples. (Armen, Paul, Deelan (sp?) and i think the other guy is Les. aka.. championship belt dood):

Me and Anthony rock your socks:

much love:
~g. .xoxo.

Tiny Update.

Just a little brief update on things.

I've decided to switch over completely to blogger from Xanga. I'll continue to use Xanga as my own private/personal journal and use this one as my main public one. With the occassional random blogs I write on myspace.

On the subject of school:
I've started school and have been incredibly busy since then. Been in a bit of a muck trying to get my classes organized and declaring my majors, etc. Just a bunch of paper work, basically. I've managed to clear up my schedule a bit, leaving me more time to work... which is really important for me because I didn't take out any loans for school and I'm paying out of my own pocket for my tuition. Which is a whole LOT. ha... :-/

On the subject of love:
Jeremy is out of the picture. I read back on these entries I've written and I'm terribly confused why I felt the way I did. I mean.. I'm not lying when I say I had such good feelings about this right from the start. But nothing really started to begin with.. and I couldn't have been more wrong about anything than this. So.. I went with my gut instincts this once and they failed me. Because this guy will not open up to me in any way and I can't wait around forever for something to happen. What a shame. :(

On the subject of family:
My sister Franca is moving out this weekend. To her own apartment! She's moved out of the house before, but this is the first time she's moving out all on her own to her own place. I'm excited for her. Can't wait 'til I can finally get my own place! : )))

On the subject of extra-curricular activities:
This play I'm in is proving to be a bit more work than I had thought. The director is constantly picking on me. I've never acted before. I wasn't born and raised in Delia to know the accent perfectly. Oh, and did I mention that everyone else in this play has already DONE the play a few years ago and so, they know it well? Anyhoo.. he's getting on my nerves.
Also, football is starting soon and I'm soooooooo excited (that's soccer for you americanos). Not til October but I'm very excited about it because I haven't been able to play in almost 2 years because I got busy and for some other reasons.

And that's my brief update.
Ciao for now.

Much Love:
~g. xoxo.

The truth about Men.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

Drunk dailing..

you know you want to. but you won't.
even though you really want to.
but you still won't.

damn it.

we went to see my sister's friend's baby the other day.
she was so tiny and adorable.
i couldn't believe how teenie and most precious she was in my arms.
look at her:

i never ever felt that i was emotionally ready for a child.
until now.
i know i'm ready for one. and i want to have kids..
but unfortunately.. everything else in my life isn't ready.
isn't that always the case? of course. :P

school. work. living spaces.
oh .. and of course the most important part..
no husband.. not even a boyfriend. yay! : ))

i'm not in a rush.. i don't feel like my clock is frantically ticking away and i need to hurry and get a move on. i want it to be when everything else seems to fit in.

but i know that's not now.

school's moving slowly ahead.. and i'm happy about it. happier about my decisions and choices.
I'm going start playing soccer again and i'm very happy about that.
my birthday is in a few days.. and i'm happy about that.

but the person i want to spend the most amount of time with.. and share the most amount of things with.. seems to have no clue what he wants.
seems to push me away with everything we do that brings us closer.
i wish so badly he'd open up to me.
something.
anything.

this is tearing me up so badly inside.

i have nothing else to add.

i dyed my bangs pink.
and i like them that way.

don't forget my birthday. ;))
it's september 15th.
i'm off to bed now.
sweet dreams to you all.

much love:
~g.

Where's the Inspiration?

I really let my head cloud up in these past few weeks. I let myself get worked up over nothing and I should have known better. I should have been how I normally am: Cautious.. Unsure.. holding back... testing the waters... I'm in a whole lot of nothing here. and for what? and how the hell did I even lose myself to begin with? I've never been in this spot before..and it's a little uncomfortable and it makes me feel really uneasy.

I've been feeling so withdrawn lately.. not wanting to be around people.. not wanting to do anything.. and not really caring.. I know this feeling. I recognize it all too well.. and it's not a place I want to go to again.. yet, I find myself constantly returning to that spot.

I'm not really sure what I'm rambling on about here today. I find myself trying to escape the city.. just to be out.. to be away. In hopes that it will take my mind off things.. not make me think. It doesn't help. It makes returning home and dealing with this dullness even harder.

I've lost my drive and inspiration.. just right now. I don't know where it's gone to. I think I've been sidetracked by other things in my life.. it's no excuse but it surely is the reason. Now I find myself obsessing and thinking over something that isn't even there and wondering if it ever even existed. I'm trying so hard to pull on those reins that let those horses gallop away in the excitement.. and trying to haul their ass back on track.. back in line.. I need to collect myself.. and my thoughts. Focus. I've lost my focus.

School.
It starts in two weeks. I've never been happier in my life to go back to school than right now. I'll be able to bury myself in exams, lectures, assignments and essays and you have no idea how thrilled I am at the prospect of that. Chaos and being swamped in a sea of deadlines. I need that so bad and I love it and welcome it with open arms. I'll be back to my regular routine. I'll be busy all the time.. probably won't see friends til the holidays.. probably won't have time for a life.. probably won't have time for me... the same ol' stuff that happens during the school year. I'm excited and I can't wait. Two more weeks and then I'll be back in focus. I'll be back on track. No more room to worry and fret over sillyness whose only purpose is to serve as a mind clouding agent. Bah! I have no time for these things in my life. Silly cat and mouse games or whatever you want to call them.

*sits tall and straightens self out*


I'll be ok. I always am.
There will always be a million more reasons to smile tomorrow and the next day.

:)))

much love:
~g.

Boredom leads to....

Yah. so, i was hella boRed.. and went nuts with the make-up.
and then snapped up some pictures..
and then went photoshop crazy with them.

and voila.. my uberness cam whoRe.. at your disposal:

k. that's it. that's all.

you can check out my other cam whoRe and make-up adventures in this photoalbum HERE.

nite nite
~g.

p.s. i *heart* Jeremy.

Smitten Kitten.....

holy fucking shit.

i dare you to try and wipe this smile off my fucking face.

:)))))))))))))))

<33333

Let me introduce you to my new friend..

ok.. so, i thought i'd introduce you to the man that's been throwing my world for a spin these past few weeks.

Meet Jeremy... (to the right)



haha it seems like this is turning out to be the *love story* blog or something.. haaa.. i'm not sure how that happened. but.. sorry if i'm making you gag with all this.

anyways, i'm soo so terrified right now.. cuz i'm afraid to get hurt. because.. i'm so smitten over here and feel so gaga and stuff about this.. from the moment i laid eyes on him. so.. i dunno. i guess i have to wait and see how it is.

he's so cute. i love his smile. *blush* <3

that's all for now. i have to go now. ciao. :))))))

switching over...

my old blog used to be here:
http://www.xanga.com/giusi_gurL

but i've been told this is better... so, i'm gunna try it out. I completely forgot i had already registered onto here. again. haha
: )))))

anyways.. umm.. so..

in the meantime.. don't mind my crappy-ass layout..
i've been searching for different templates.. but can't find one i like... and i SHOULD be in bed.. holy fuck. i just noticed what time it is.. i need to work in the morning. sick!

so, in the meantime... i'm gunna keep this LOVELY default one from blogger .. ;))

testing.. testing.. 1.. 2.. 3..



goodnight!! : ))))))))

~g. <3

i fergot..

that i had this. wow.

this dress is pretty..


nite nite.
~g.