You don't have to call anymore, I won't pick up the phone.

This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry!

This one's for you, boo.

You are scum, you are scum and I hope that you know

That the cracks in your smile are beginning to show

Now the world needs to see that it's time you should go

There's no light in your eyes and your brain is too slow

Can't believe you were once just like anyone else

Then you grew and became like the devil himself

Pray to god I can think of a kind thing to say

But I don't think I can, so fuck you anyway.

I used to love you.

You know I was the best thing that ever happened to you.
Now look at what you've lost.

I don't know why I used to love you..
I don't.. I don't.. I don't.

Set me free... Leave me be

Brunch love.

Now i can drown my pancakes in syrup forever. :)

Stop asking, you know all the reasons why

hey look... it's a post.

Hiya folks.    Lookie who's back!!   meeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!  

Does anyone even read this thing anymore? anyone? Bueller?

Well..... here i am.. Finally got my computer set up the other day and I was like.. hey man.. i got so much crap i can upload and update etc...  So, I should totally do that RIGHT NOW, right??? :))))

Well... There's a whole bunch of new stuff that has happened since I last posted.  For starters, I live on my own now for the past 4 months. Finally moved out of the parental unit.  I'm a big girl now!! :))    and today is officially a year since I've been = at my new work place.  So, it's all cooolio, yO.  Lots of new beginnings for sure.  So, I guess I'll just update with some pix and stuff.   Just a few pertinent pix with a couple of short descriptions. and hopefully you'll get a proper blog the next time. But anyway, here we go....

• this is me circa 5 months ago.  i was packing my stuff up at home and came across this old leather collar i had got custom made way back in my goth days. haha good times ;-))))

 

 

•  these are all the boxes i needed to pack.. oh yaaaaa boyyy. hehehe :))

• My new place... and finally having my babies with me!!  this is Halo and Massimo.. the two boys we rescued last year.  They were found with their litter in a plastic bag in a dumpster. People are so messed up. :((((

• My kitchen!  It's totally adorable and spacious. I love it. :))))  

• My cousin Lisa came to visit from France for two weeks back in September. Her, my aunt and uncle stayed at my parents house for two weeks and we were up to all kinds of shenanigans for two weeks.  Was fun!  Can't wait to go visit her in France next year!! :)))))

• My first hair cut in a long long time. Got a graduated a-line bob.. Though this picture was taken two months ago.. so, it's a touch longer now and grown out all blah-like now.  I'll fix it up next month and take a better picture.. with an actual camera and not my cell. :)) Maybe.....  (probably not. haaaa)

• Me and Carrie up to all kinds of shite as per usual.  That's how we roll. Titz & Bitz for life.  When we gunna start all those blog ideas, girl?? hehe :))

• Some Halloween times.   I won best costume at my work. Cuz that's how i roll.

• Close up of my ghastly face. Yep  yep.

• This is baby Bali.  He is a baby Holstein calf.   He is a rescue at Wishing Well animal sanctuary and I had the most wonderful pleasure of bottle feeding him. He was such a sweet doll.  Totally fell in love with him and those big eyes!  *swoooon*.

• Me and my girls Denise, Kerri & Tanya.   Been friends with these lovely ladies for 15 years now and i totally adore them.  Such great gals. :)

• Got to see Moist play last month! SO amazing. WHat a blast from the past.  Took me back to being 18! haha  Mind you, this was the first time i saw Moist and wasn't moshing in the pit.. or drunk.  Times have changed for sure hehe :)

• David Usher.. dood hasn't changed one bit.

• Also, got to meet the members of  'In My Coma'.  They opened up for Moist.  Totally cool peeps. and awesome band.  Just listening to their CD right now actually. You should check them out. :)

• Me and Geo posing up for some Selfies post concert. woot. NXDers 4life.

• This was that time when I played for the Argonotes last summer... the Argonauts pep band.  Me and my sister had a great time,,,even though she only fake played. haha  What a great experience. I look forward to doing it again next year.  

• Went to California again this past summer.  This time, we checked out central coast.  Stayed in Avila Beach. How heavenly it was.  I friggen love Cali.  Would totally live there. LOVE IT. 

• My girl Bethany drove down to Avila and stayed with us for the weekend...and showed us around. Was so good to hang out. Wish you lived closer, girl!!  Miss ya! .xoxo.

•  Here's a picture of my adorable Christmas tree.  Yup.> Super KAWAIIIII.     And if I don't get to post before then.. i wanna say MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you!  HAve a wicked awesome Holiday!! :)))

 

That's pretty much all.. I'm sure there's lots more to type and tell.. but it's 1am.. and i'm hella tired and wanna crash cuz I'm a little itty bitty old lady now.  Oh ya.. my sister Franca got married in January.  I don't have a photo.. and can't seem to find any for some reason.   But her and Michelle had a lovely ceremony in Niagara Falls and we all attended and it was very touching!     So, that's pretty much it.    I hope to update a bit more and be more active with my vlog channel once i get all settled into my new place and stuff...  You'd think i'd be settled after 4 months.. but no such luck. haha  Anyoo.. That's just a quick glimpse of my life right now.   Hope to write more soon.  Take care. :))))   .
~G.  xoxo.

I wanna write  a special dedication to Zodi who passed away two months ago today.    He was such a beautiful and special boy.  We are going to miss you forever.  Such a gentle and loving soul he was.  You will forever remain in our hearts.   You were the face of sweetness, gentleness and loveliness. A great and bright light went dim that day... and the sadness that overtook our hearts was immeasurable. :(((((    Rest in Peace forever dear sweet baby boy. We love you so much.. no one more than your  momma Carolina.  *hugs*  Love you both.  .xoxo.   RIP Zodiac. 

And what do I want?

Quite frankly, I'm not really sure anymore. I'm waiting for some deep meaningful moment to happen..to start.. To appear in front of my eyes. But i have no idea what I'm looking for or waiting for. I was told by my counselor to do things that make me happy. What exactly makes me happy? I thought this would be easy and I could do this so effortlessly. But i have no idea what makes me happy. I dont know what hobbies i care for or things that really inspire me or motivate me or just make me feel jolly in general. I haven't the slightest clue what that is.. I haven't any idea what i want. And what makes me tick. And what makes ME happy. And that part..is the most startling thing for me. So, how do i find this out?

What I've learned so far..

I've learned that people like to point out your mistakes, but deny their own.
I've learned that you can comfort people all you want, but the minute you need comfort, they can barely listen to a few of your own strangled lifeless lines before they bail.
I've learned that just as easily as someone can give you their love, they can take it away from you and leave you there flailing your arms about in the deep end, drowning...
I've learned that people are selfish and at the end of the day, they only care about their own immediate best interest.
I've learned that maybe I should do the same.
I've learned that nothing is definite.. or indefinite.
I've learned that your health should always be your first priority.. and that doesn't mean a number on the scale or how toned your sweet body looks. No. I don't mean those at all.  You shouldn't either.
I've learned that being able to control my feelings is nearly impossible.
I've learned that I need to start asking for help.  Cuz I'm not that strong.
I've learned that life is very different now from how it used to be.. and that there's a serious disconnect happening between people.  It makes me sad.. and slightly afraid.
I've learned that I can't trust my own judgement.  nor yours.
I've learned that I have an affinity for the sad sad songs when I feel grief stricken.
I've learned that I'm majorly fucked up. and so are a lot of people. way more than me.
I've learned that I've always enjoyed being on my own.  Maybe there's a reason for that.
I've learned that I don't know how to be mean to someone I love. Even if they deserve it.
I've learned that a promise can always be broken in love.. along with your heart. Multiple times.
I've learned that keeping secrets makes you feel ill.
I've learned that coffee is the devil. and super bad for you. on every level.
I've learned that I seem to have a lot in common with Taylor Swift and her inclination towards emotionally dysfunctional people.
I've learned a lot of her songs.
I've learned that people lie and act horribly because of their own fears and hang ups
I've learned that I'm already bored of wanting to write a new blog entry..
I've learned that naming your plants makes it much more monumental.
I've learned that it's not all in my head.  but sometimes it is.
I've learned that I have a gift.  and I should learn more about it.
I've learned that I'm really afraid of a lot of things.
I've learned that being mindful is the only way to live.  and I'm still learning.

Yet I've learned absolutely nothing at all...

i hate seagulls

I have a friend, with whom I'd like to spend anytime I can find
With ... I like sleeping in your bed
I like knowin' what is goin' on inside your head
I like taking time and I like your mind
And I like when your hand is in mine
I like gettin' drunk on the tunes by the beach
I like pickin' strawberries
I like cream-teas
And I like reading ... ghost-stories
And my heart skips a beat everytime that we meet
It's been a while and now your smile is almost like a memory
But then you're back and I am fine 'cause you're with me
And I'm in love with you
♥

Why is Declawing still Legal in Canada??

I am against ALL types of animal cruelty.. in any shape or form.  So.. how is that one of the most inhumane things that you could ever do to an animal.. is still LEGAL in this country???  When it us mutilation and torture to your little furry baby!  This upsets me to NO ends.

For the people who have already declawed or have been thinking about it.. they probably have no idea what it really is.  It is literally the "AMPUTATION" of their last bones at the first joints!  Can you imagine someone cutting off your fingertips?? Even if they healed.. you would have pain there for the rest of your life and discomfort.  The SPCA and Humane Society and all other rescue shelters ban declawing and are 100% against it.. for obvious reasons.. because it is MUTILATION!

I feel embarrassed and sad when people from other countries look at as with horror and disgust.. knowing we allow such a barbaric procedure for our own selfish needs.   :((((

Please, if anyone is considering declawing your pet.. research it first!

Here are some very good links that you can read to be informed on such a barbaric procedure that should be illegal here in Canada as it is in most European countries and in other countries as well!

http://www.declawing.com/

STOPDECLAW.COM

Save Our Paws. com

List of vets who promote such procedures:
http://declawhallofshame.com/

info on how to get them to not scratch furniture:
http://www.declawing.com/htmls/article.htm


and a very informative good video:


watch this and then click on the link to help ban declawing in Canada!
 

SIGN THE PETITION HERE TO MAKE DECLAWING ILLEGAL IN CANADA 

 If you love your furry babies, you wouldn't even dream of torturing them with such a barbaric and horrific mutilating procedure. :(((((

Do the research.. and think again!

Make Declawing ILLEGAL in CANADA!

SIGN THE PETITION HERE TO MAKE DECLAWING ILLEGAL IN CANADA 

SIGN THE PETITION HERE TO MAKE DECLAWING ILLEGAL IN CANADA 

SIGN THE PETITION HERE TO MAKE DECLAWING ILLEGAL IN CANADA   

Cuz it's not hard to fall.. when you float like a cannonball

The crummiest of days ended with an even crummier explosion on this crummy day. :((((

My dad gave me his wedding watch today. It means a lot to me.

Happy father's day dad. I love you.

It's happening..

Yes.. That's right. What we've all been waiting for *ever soooo patiently*...

New NO DOUBT ... Soon!!! Happy birthday to meeeee!!!! ^__^

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick

I never blog anymore. I never sit at my computer anymore either.. The fact that the fans are going on it could be a reason.. Or that I don't feel like being in that office room. Who knows..

But I just discovered this new blogger app.. And that may or may not mean more blog posts.. :) we shall see.

Right now.. I'm being truly lazy in my bedroom.. But I do have a new journal thingie I bought from the the dollar store (I love it there) and hope to keep track of my overall health in it. Let's see how long that lasts..

I always seem to have a mountain of projects and ideas on the go.. And barely ever having completed any of them, I'm left feeling quite unfulfilled and unsatisfied in life. That seems to be the way i play it most days.. Trying most diligently [/lie] to break out of that mould. Let's try again, shall we?

Happy Tuesday :))))
Much love:
~G .xoxo.

it's too late.. we're undone

even if the skies get rough....... :) ♥

{ I'm still lookin' up... }

First Skate & 3 years passed

Me and my sister took the girls for their first skate yesterday at the same arena that we, ourselves, skated at while growing up. It was the cutest thing ever and I am SO thrilled they did so well!! awwwww :))))) my lovelies! Now the skating ritual is passed down to the next generation. It makes me so so happy and pleased. :)))))

I don't like to post pix of them, but I just had to post these because I'm so proud of how well they did and they looked SOOOO damn adorable and sweet. Mind you.. my back is SURE paying it hardcore today.. lol 2 hours bent over the ice is pure hell on your back.. thank GOD for Robaxecet!!!! hehehe :)))) Watch out people.. .here are the next women's Canadian Hockey team members!!!! RAWR!!!! hahahahaha







P.S. I would like to say that today is the 3rd year anniversary of my dear cousin Giacomo's death. There isn't a moment's time when I don't think about you Giacomo. You're always missed... you're one in a million and you're a bright and shining star in my sky forever.




i miss you soooo much :'((((((((((

Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

All of these questions, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it up, shake it out, shake it up, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it up, shake it out, shake it up, shake it out, ooh woaaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn

Oh woah, oh woah...

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, for the devil in me
Looking for heaven, for the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i don't have much to write. just didn't get a chance.. and wanted to wish everyone many many well wishes and the bestest of luck and amazingness for the brand spankin' new year of 2012!! good vibes all around to everybody! :)))) .xoxo.



p.s. i bought a webcam! haaa it's my first one i bought on my own. haven't used one in YEARS!
and this one SUCKS! hehehe but it was cheap.. cheap is GOOD!
and now i can skype on my PC. what what!! :))) .much love. ^__^